always darkest before the dawn

heard this song so many times and only recently have i noticed the lyrics. 

Regrets collect like old friends / Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way / And all of the ghouls come out to play
 And every demon wants his pound of flesh / But I like to keep some things to myself
 I like to keep my issues drawn / It's always darkest before the dawn
 And I've been a fool and I've been blind / I can never leave the past behind
 I can see no way, I can see no way / I'm always dragging that horse around
 Our love is questioned, such a mournful sound / Tonight I'm gonna bury that horse in the ground
 So I like to keep my issues drawn / But it's always darkest before the dawn
 And I am done with my graceless heart / So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart
 'Cause I like to keep my issues drawn / It's always darkest before the dawn
 And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back / And given half the chance would I take any of it back
 It's a fine romance but it's left me so undone / It's always darkest before the dawn
 And I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't / So here's to drinks in the dark at the end of my road
 And I'm ready to suffer and I'm ready to hope / It's a shot in the dark aimed right at my throat
 'Cause looking for heaven, found the devil in me / Looking for heaven, found the devil in me
 Well what the hell I'm gonna let it happen to me, yeah

oped

i don't like it when people use the word 'juxtaposition'. it sounds pretentious. if you go to an art show, you will most likely hear that word uttered by someone who is trying to sound like they know what they are talking about...

ok, i'm done. your turn. 

done? my turn again...

...in my opinion, no digital camera will ever beat what film cameras produce. i actually don't mind the grain, noise, and the beautiful accidents one can get out of them. it's part of the feeling a photograph gives off. the developing process also adds to the fun, and sometimes, frustrating experience. alas, the cost to have/rent a photo lab or to even have them developed can add up. these days, it's all about efficiency + sufficiency 'cause we all be broke n' shit! and i also really need to stop taking pictures with my phone and my now dying canon.

so i've been testing out a new mirrorless camera that i'm absolutely in love with (i think). there are so many features and capabilities and a multitude of things i need to learn to be able to use it to its fullest. it's driving me nuts, but i'm enjoying the challenge. truthfully though, i think i'm mostly just excited about all the leica lenses i can use, and at the same time, frown at the reality of not being able to afford one. if i had just a few thousand dollars... le sigh.

...i accept paypaaaaal, visaaaaaa, mastercaaaaarrrd...
nah, if you can spare a sammich + an arnold palmer, that'd be great! heh. (thanks.)

 

murky wars

so far from the distant shore / the only time she never feels alone
on the land, her body distorts / in the water, lines are true to her mind
she knows she'll never touch the floor / she can float unharmed by murky wars
and the land is as plain as her skin / but the water shines like the star in her mind

they will never understand / how washed up you feel on land
the spotlight of the sun, it shines on