take the high road

i feel a little disappointed with myself because i reacted to someone in a way i never should have, and i stooped to a level so low that shame started to creep in, and i know i'm better than that.

usually, when people are power tripping and needing so bad to prove that they are greater than everyone else, there's a deep rooted insecurity within them that they haven't yet faced, or are too scared to. basically, i gave an eye for an eye, and when you do that, everyone goes blind.

lesson: take the high road and be the better person. instead, react with love, kindness and understanding, even if it means silence.

ideas in bloom

headed up to san francisco in a few days with ten disposable cameras in tow. i've been wanting so badly to get back to using film again, but i can't decide which camera i want, so i'm resorting to disposable ones for now. five of these ten cameras will end up in the hands of my friends. the results will be posted here, assuming i get them all back.

i'm excited about this, and i can't wait to see what they capture.

a note to self:

“The negative thoughts you hold onto are like garbage.”

so basically, don't bring garbage with you wherever you go.

et un plus.

"tinctured with the secret light"

"Do you want to move and breathe amidst infertile chaos where nothing makes sense and no one really loves anyone? Then speak with unconscious carelessness, expressing yourself lazily. Constantly materialize and entertain angry thoughts in the privacy of your own imagination, beaming silent curses out into eternity. 

Or would you prefer to live in a realm that's rich with fluid epiphanies and intriguing coincidences and mysterious harmonies? Then be discerning and inventive in how you speak, primed to name the unexpected codes that are always being born right in front of your eyes. Turn your imagination into an ebullient laboratory where the somethings you create out of nothings are tinctured with the secret light you see in your dreams of invisible fire."

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"It's so tempting to look at your present life situation, at whom you're with, at where you work, at what you have and have not, and think to yourself, "This was obviously meant to be... I'm here for a reason." And to a degree, you'd be right. But you are where you are because of the thoughts you used to (and may still) think, and so you are where you are to learn that this is how life works -- NOT because it was meant to be. 

Don't give away your power to vague or mysterious logic. Tomorrow is a blank slate in terms of people, work, and play, because it, too, will be of your making. You will again have that sense that it was meant to be, no matter who or what you've drawn into your life. Nothing is meant to be, except for your freedom to choose and your power to create."

your thoughts become things. create the life you want.

i am still learning, i am still growing. this endless lesson called life.